How Someone Can Move On Without You, When You're Still Stuck With 'Forever Us'.

"Many times we don't get life, we tend to giveup without a fight."

Boringgg, will be working working working. Totally no life.
Like seriously, wanna wanna transfer to the fastfood outlet.
The pay's $6/hr but fucking slack plz. Unlike, $7/hr but wtfh.
Everything's ok, except the uniform etc ugh. Hope time flies by!
Should I work on 14-16th feb? Double pay lehz, sure tiring sial.
Anyw, WC says got some V's Day promo, $300/couple. EXXX SIA.
If I'm to work for 3days full, seh can get my hands on itouch alrdy heh.

Mama says I'm getting, looking more angmoh-ish. Really or?
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Mum: (came home, by the door) You look more angmoh now leh.
Me: Huh, why what thing?
Mum: You look very angmoh now lor.
Me: -.-
Mum: I'm starting to wonder who's your dad. Haha.
Me: Not funny mum.
Mum: Really!! Think your face lah, you go see yourself.
Me: Ok, maybe alil' lah right.
Mum: NO, ALOT.
Me: Ok, don't so agitated lah!!!

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Anyw, am supposed to slp like right now. Bloodyhell have to wakeup at 7plus.
Cuz promised some idiot to go teban for breakfast, have to meet by 8am. CAN DIE.
But like as usual, will be taking my own sweet time. Haha. Okbai, nights-nights now.

Nothing Feels Right When I'm Not With You.

There're times when I don't feel like saying a thing, but I did.
There're times when I pretend I'm alright when actually, I ain't.
There're times when I laugh out loud with ppl, when I feel like crying.
There're times when I wish I was still your #1 but we're over that.
There're times when I regret initiating things even though, you're a jerk.
There're times when I wish I studied harder so I won't end up like this now.
There're times when I wanna rewind time though it's a stupid thinking.
There're times when I feel like crying, but I don't want to cuz it feels dumb.
There're times when I don't wanna do anything, but sit and stare at you.
There're times when I wanna move on, but when I seeyou, back to square1.
There're times when I dunno whythehell did I agree to being tgt, seriously.
There're times when I care so much for you that it really, really hurts alot.
There're times when I try so hard and nothing gets the best of my feelings.
There're times when I want, just someone whom I can love/rely on.
There're times when I rather be alone than with someone else, cuz I'm afraid.
There're times when I want to rid you OFF MY MIND BUT I CAN'T AFFORD TO.

Those were the times when I held back all my feelings.
But from tomorrow, I'm gonna try letting go of everything.
It's ridiculous, I know, I keep saying letting go when still holding on.

Everyone Deserves To Be Loved.

I want someone, whom I call him, mine.

Never, ever lose yourself in a relation.
Cuz you'll definitely be on the losing end.
If I loveyou, I should let you move on. -17again.

Joke Of The Day.

Rf: Uh, but your course got some 40-yr-old plus man.
Me: Really? Hahaha.
Rf: Yah. He always drive to school one, somemore from army.
Me: Good what, he can drive me to school.
Rf: He will be your senior. Haha.
Me: What? Oklor, can be my sugar daddy lah he.
Rf: No, he can be your sugar ahgong.
Me: HAHAHAHAHA. WTFHHHHHHHHHH.
Rf: That old guy every morning drink kopi-o + eat bao, like uncle.

Seriously, imagine he's to be my classmate. Ok shut.

Mama bought 10 boxes x 20 oranges for cny.
Best or what, can stuff self with oranges like mad.
HAHAHAHA. I'm gonna have a orange-y newyear.

You're Getting Less Addictive, Which Is Good.

1. I keep tumblr-ing these days. Omggg, it's becoming a habit. Like seriously.
2. I can't get like seriously, outta my head. It's stuck in my head to. Like seriously.

So today, was so much more fun than I can ever imagine? Haha. Ok, was bout 5mins late but still managed to reach on time lah. Pro right, k? Even though only boarded the bus like round 1030plus-ish. Mmmmm, corp cadet was great like per norm. Aft, clementi with Inri+Hw. Hw ultimate best lah today, treat us playyyy l4d2 for an hour. Hehehe. So niceee of him right! So we played, makes my head go right round right round, giddy siaaa. So longgg never play l4d2 alrdy, became noob alrdy can. Anyw, we killed many boomerrrs, witches, and all etc. Happy. Then, went the arcade place play shooting ballsss!!! We always die at stage2, kns. Haha. 2nd attempt at the machine. Pro or what cuz Hw managed to catch a cute stich, somemore pink one, so pretty-looking. I've it with me now cuz he gaveee me (so nice right!!!), like seriously. Will upload its pic some other time. Ya-kun Kaya Toast, eat the cheese burger, 1st virgin try manz. Not bad. Then, went homeee with Hw aft cuz Inri ranaway on us. So nice of her. Thanks ffor today guysss, luvvvvvvvvyouuuu'all xxxxx.

I've learnt my lesson, some things better left unkown.
I've done all I can, I'm not trying, not anymore.

This Is True, Isn't It.

"We will always,
ignore the ones who adore us,
adore the ones who ignore us,
love the ones who hurt us,
and hurt the ones that love us."

Would You Make Me No.1 On Your Playlist?

What is a perfect girlfriend?
They say there’s no such thing as perfection, and that she doesn’t exist.

She dresses up all cute and pretty everytime you take her out on a date.
This is her way of keeping you interested as your eyes are locked solely on her.
You stare at other girls instead and,
she gets hurt and upset that all her time and effort were put to waste.
You call her insecure.

She holds on to you like she’s never letting you go.
This is her way of telling other girls that she’s lucky that she has you,
and no, you’re not available.
You call her clingy.

She calls you the sweetest nicknames, or ones that you two will only understand.
This is her way of showing you how special you are,
and that there’s nobody else in this world like you.
You call other girls “babe” (“Hey babe!”) just as how you would call her,
and she gets disappointed.
You call her shallow and jealous.

She checks up on you, making sure you made it home safely,
or that you’re not out getting yourself into any kind of trouble.
This is her way of showing how often she thinks about you,
and that she worries constantly because that’s how much she cares.
You say she’s nagging.

She cries when you do or say something wrong.
This is her way of saying
“that HURT only because YOU said it and I love YOU.”
You call her overly sensitive and emotional.

She loves you more than you love her.
This is her way of dealing with the fact that,
your relationship wasn’t like how it used to be,
but she is willing to make room for more love and some changes.
You push her away.
You call her dramatic and annoying.

So go ahead.

Leave the insecure, clingy, shallow, jealous, nagging,
overly sensitive, emotional, dramatic, annoying girl.

She will soon be much happier,
in the arms of someone who actually deserves her:
a perfect boyfriend.

I Hate It When,

1.) ppl act like they know you inside out when they actually don't.
2.) treat you awesomely nice (x infinity) for popularity's sake. ugh.
3.) backstab you like zillion of times yet, pretending to be friendly.
4.) everything goes wrong and I don't even get to choose what I want.
5.) things ain't going well and people goes like: "everything will be alright."
6.) sometimes, I feel alot, and I don't get to vent how I feel, so tating manz.
7.) life's a bitch. What we want isn't what we get cuz life's unfair, like seriously.
8.) I pretend I'm ok when I'm actually not, having to put on false pretenses.
9.) everyday's such a routine, when everyone's so annoying, when I don't feel happy.
10.) I don't even understand myself like used to anymore. Like seriously, wtfhhh.

I JUST WANT EVERYTHING BACK THE WAY I WANTED IT TO BE.
Is it too much to expect for? I don't really think so. FTL.

Here We Are, At The Crossroad Once Again.

My day, was spent single, short, simple, sizzling and sweet.
Hsweeth > Imm > Distributed flyersss (for Mum) > Family Bbq @ Aunt's place > Hsweeth
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No pictures todayyy! Cuz we went there very late bout 8plus. Yay but one happy thing is, at least I finished drama-inggg. Sadly, didn't really spend much time with all. Still, pretty much sums up my day, my life. Did I add on, family specially bought sushiiii. Omg, I was like eating them to my heart's content. Bbq was lovely, with a small family gathering. One funny thing was, W called and we were talking then my aunt suddenly stood beside me for no apparent reason, just stood there and stared at me. I didn't realise anything amiss so just kept talking with him on the phone. Aft awhile, she was STILL standing there. So I looked at her, she gaveee me the weird, loud giggle before walking off. Like seriously, made me L O L completely. Then, cousins all were imitating me on the phone and then, W was like going mad. Keep saying: "Ask them all to shutup before I come beat them up." Gangggster, like seriously L O L. Ok, it's not very very funny actually but I don't have anything to bloggg and I thought this will do. Actually, no right. Ok shuttt. Hoiiiii.

Made me wonder why I can choose friends over us anytime.
That's why, I'm learning towards; letting go's for the best.

Shocking news:
#1. My aunt's boyfrd's actually an N.indian, cool!!!
#2. An N.piercing. (Omggg, may be doing one too.)
#3. Makes me think about, everything for the whole time.

PS: I'd be back to touch up on my bloggg again, gdnight xxx.

Got No Instructions When It Comes To Love.

When chances comes and goes,
the only one thing we can do is to, MOVE ON WITH LIFE.
No point stopping, staying, feeling so much more.
When what's meant to be is not, just not anymore.
I don't really get myself.

I've Decided,

rather pointless holding on when I'm the only one at it.
Everyone'll be happier this way, letting go's for the best.

I know, I've always been saying this but not meaning it.
I just wish sometimes, I don't feel anything I'm not supposed to.

There's No Boundaries When It Comes To True Love.

"In love, it is better to know and be disappointed, than to not know and always wonder. It's scary how things may turn out, friends to lovers, lovers to dust. So why does all good things come to an end? I used to always annoy you, saying, if the old doesn't go, the new one won't come. Now's all so true. You left, without explaining why. Some things are indeed better left, unsaid."

Tonight's Imperfect, Without You By My Side.

D-A-M-M-I-T.

Mmmmm, actually kinda lazy to bloggg but my blog posts like boring only these days so have to freshen it up abit. Y'know, like blog to impress. Ok, whateverrrrr. Drama's loading so slowly, music's dl-ing so slowly too. Ok, I must be asleep by 1am. That's the latest time I have to. And, best thing is, I've to wakeup at like round 7plus laterrr. Nice one huh. I bet from tmr onwards, have to report at like 1030am sharp, plus rollcall at 11am. Still have to put on makeup and allllllll, can die plz tyvm. Nehmind. It'd be worth it. It better be. It will be.

Sometimes, it's not easy to pretend you're alright when you ain't. Days getting by, everyday adds on to the day when everything ended. Frankly, till now, I dunno what I saw in you, but I just liked/loved you just the way you are. You're not like any other I've came across. We started out from the basics, from scratch but slowly, feelings developed and etc. If now, I were to ask you this question you asked me before everything. I'll still say the very same.

We just won't really understand someone entirely. No matter how long, how well we know that particular someone, there's bound to be smth hidden, deep secrets that they won't let us into. Every night, before I sleep, I think about what we could have been. We could have last. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for mistrusting you. I'm sorry for that night. I'm sorry. I really am.

I've been feeling alot, like really really alot.

I've been thinking about you, me, us, them.

I've been dreaming of what's not meant to be.

I've been crazily, hesitating bout everything I do.

I've been listening to songs that reminds me of you.

I've been doing things I know I shouldn't but want to.

I've been flaring for no particular reason and it's scaring.

I've been losing myself in everything I do, losing total control.

I've been taking up things I shouldn't but I want to cuz to destress.

I've been acting so weirdly, that's how I feel, and I don't like it at all.

I've been missing you more than I ever, ever did and I hope you do too.

I've been loving you for everyday since used to, but it's slowly, fading away..

"我在等不会改变的真心。" - Quoted from Rainie Yang's song.

You set my heart on fire, it's like we beat as one.

xx.

Don't You Realise, Everything Do Changes.

Finally, case settled. It better be this time.

FAST OR WHAT. It's like 3rd of Feb alrdy manz. I only have a week plus to make it right. I'm still hesitating though. Anyw, been spending my days working, practically slogging my life off. Haha ok, not that exaggerating but true. Been mostly doing that lah. I certainly pray hard, hope that I WILL NOT BREAK ANYMORE GLASSES PLEASE, esp not straight at the customer's faces. KO. Two working days, both days one glass broke. Cursed or what manz, like seriously. But adore workinggg if everyone's present cuz it's fun, esp annoying Bacon and Co.

Past few days. Even if I try harder than you do, care more than you feel. It won't make any difference anymore, right? When you say let things be, it's like saying: Let's move on. I told you, what I feel, then you said: You should. IF I COULD, I WOULD BUT I CAN'T CUZ I'M STUCK HERE, WITH EVERYTHING WE'VE BEEN THRU. WE GOT THIS FAR AND NOW, YOU DON'T MIND GIVING EVERYTHING UP. I DON'T REALLY CARE CUZ LOVE IS SELFLESS. This Valentine's, we were supposed to celebrate it tgt, somehow sometime but nowww.. it's all over and gone. Told'ya before, if I can move on with life and pretend we're just like any other ordinary friends. I would. I'll be trying. But it's not easy to stay as friends, not aft everything. Someone, anyone, what should I do? I know, I always act like I don't care. It's cuz I don't wanna show it out, don't wanna let you know that I'm hurting.

Everyday life's been near to perfect,
would have been absolutely perfect if you're with me.
I dunno why the fuck I'm trying so hard for, for nothing.

Happy 17th B'day, My Darling Girl!

Hi. Retard. How to start? This post's specially dedicated for you yah, you ought to be very honoured. Awwww, I know. Before you get touched and all, cry and start touching, hugging me all over. Let's just say, Happy 17th B'day, My Darling Girl! Hmmm, I know, you know, we both know that even though the world's getting insane, we're both still the sane ones. Yah? Haha. Ok, I'm actually crapping. Nay, just wanna thankyou for being such a sunshine, sweetheart, lovelyz, carebear, honeyhype, retard, happy-go-lucky-girl, dearest and practically, a living human being that's always always there for me, whenever I need one. You'll be there. I know. Our shared-secrets, htht talk @ Iluma, our first and solo movie (Paranormal Activity), and many other first virgin trys tgt, are loved. Even though you may not feel how much you mean to me, it's actually quite alot alot alot. Anyw, you promised to spare some precious time of yours for me so you will, soon alright?! You tell me when! Hahaha. Oklah, it's getting draggy. Always remember that, you've to stay happy no matter rain or shine ok? But in anyw, I loveyou rararara from the bottom of my heart. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX.

Cher/xx

You Just Have To, Listen To Your Heart.

"Sometimes you’re hesitant to become a couple with that someone, cuz you are afraid of losing what you already have with that person. But life is all about taking risks that requires you to jump, go ahead with what you feel. Don’t be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have, or could have had, with regrets. Lastly, No One waits forever."

If I Knew What I'll Feel Now, Wouldn't Have Let You Left.

It's the 1st of Feb today.
The brand new start of a month.

For the past month;
I had my happiness, honeymoon days, hthts, hyped moments, hostility, heartfelt feelings, hatred, heartbreaks.

For this month;
I want back my happiness, honeymoon days, hthts, hyped moments, (no more) hostility, (some) heartfelt feelings, (no more) hatred, (no more) heartbreaks.

Sometimes, some things happens, and we dunno why it did. Well, but if we were to sit and cry our days away, chances will be gone. The only sane thing to do is to, get ourselves back tgt, take chances. Listen to your heart, don't ever live with regrets in your life, never ever. That's the stupidest thing you can ever feel. It'll be tough. No one said loving, giving your all was simple. If everything's just simple, without setbacks, challenges, life's pointless huh? Cuz what for, live this worth which barely means anything. I still want you, me, us, them, back in my life. No amount of words, will measure up to how I feel. Easier said than done, right.

"The only things in life you regret, are the risks that you didn't take."

Of all, I just want you back in my life again.
I don't really get myself why, but I just do.

I Wanna Make You Mine, Like Way Back Into Love Again.

I've been pretty much doing up the house for cny. I'm so, not awaiting cny I-dunno-whyyyy. Anyw, luvvv the bonding session we had at gh. Even though no waffles, felt alot while I was there but still, thoroughly enjoyed myself with them rest. No pictures much.

I always thought I'm old, mature enough to make this decision back again. When I told you, you hesitated, it makes me ponderrrr. Thought about why you held back. I don't really care anymore, but I'm still sticking with what I told you, what I feel. Well, I dunno whether sticking to my heartfelt-feelings's a sane idea but all I know is, you'll always be part of my life. You're the first to make me realise what I've never felt before. Always, and forever. It just says so.

We can always try, just one shot. One last time.
Forever's not a problem, as long as we want.

I'd Be Waiting For You, Yes You.

Yea baby, just updated myyyy playlist. Omggg, luvvv the songs. Enjoy listening yea. You'll definitely love 'em too.<:

I don't care what others say.
This time round, it's how I feel.
I'll wait for you, us, like how we were before.

Let Me Get There Before You Go.

The saddest truth in life are not those whom you don't bother, that tries their hardest to affect you, but instead, those that you care of who ignores you. True?

Sometimes, We Just Don't Understand.

Heyohyo. Ok, my legs's still hurting from the extreme exhaustion. I'm dead serious. I can, even like, amputate it off and I won't feel a thing, at all. Yes, we had our shit wasted trip to tiong. (just for macs breakfast) when we could have ours at harbourfront INSTEAD, in the early morning but nehmind. Aft that, metup with the manager and our supposedly colleagues. Work worked, entire day with an hour break, which was like pathetic. But am so satisfied with myself today, even though I'm fuckinggg hell tired, you can bet on it. I broke a wine glass, caused several loud clangs, feet hurts like mad. And yes, our uniform's like some samsui-womaan's. The only thing exciting about RWS's the Universal Studios, likeeee fun only. Awaiting its grand opening. Hehehe. Anyw, finished work round 11plus, shuttle bus terminated (sue the company till pants drop for keeping us in) so Sob's dad had to come pick us up. S11 for supper and then, walked over back home and reached home bout almost 1. Thanks lah xxxxx

Anyw, I'm so seeing bitch laterrrrr for..
Xtraordinary yummy waffles+hangout at gh.

If Only You Knew Before We Were Done.

The sweetest thing one can ever do for you is, to be there for you, by your side, listen to your heartfelt thoughts without judging. Being honest's the only way to open up, in a relation, to be part of one's life. You, lost your chances.

Always, Love Without Limits.

I was browsing thru my pics when I found these..

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This one was one crazy but fun night-morn manz.
Cuz we practically msn-ed till like 5plusam in the morn.

Anyw, thanks for the company mushroom head #1 fan! HAHA.

The Greatest Joy In Life, Are True Friends.

Which's which?

To forget someone entirely, you've to forget yourself first.

OR

To forget someone entirely, you've to remember yourself first.

Sometimes, it doesn't help even when everything's over.

What If, There's No More Second Chances.

This past few days of my life was beyond description, had me mixed-feelings.
But whatever, wanna those that have been by my side, with me, thanks lovelies.
I know no amount of words can express how I really feel, seriously.

Watch this space, will update soon.
I'll learn to move on, I need to, have to, I must.

Head Over Heels In Luvvv With You Baby.

I'VE JUST BEEN BULLIED.

Ok hiii. Am currently usinggg Lingg's com to blog nao. Didn't thought of bringing cuz yea, nehmind dumb enough. Hehe. Ohwell, church in the morninggg. I feel really relieved whenever I go church, dunno why. Just this feeling in me. Metup with Lingg then came over to the Yacht Club tgt, had wild pillowww fights. The boysss all tagteam, tacklinggg me, victim sia!!! GRRR. SO EVIL RIGHT. Anyw, waiting for ysss luvvv to come soon. YES, GONNA TAKE LOTS AND LOTS OF PICS. Can't wait manz, watch this space yea. Pity everyone couldn't unite this time, but nehmind, there will be a next yea. CONFIRM CHOP.

Brb, gonna go play poooollll nowwww.

I luvvvyou baby, xx.